Don’t you tell me how to feel
every time you state your opinion
the obligation here is real
because you know that I’d say
anything for you
if this is the kind of life you are happy to
live
go on
times are changing and I can see
I see now
I have to choose
it is turning me away from everything
familiar
and casting me out on a sea I’ve never
known
and all your efforts to keep me safe
just made me dependent
but out here when I need you most
you can’t rebuke the wind that’s tossing
me
to reach this half of my heart
He had to touch my eyes
to show me truth that is real to me
Because it speaks of all I left
behind
now a real life is harder than anything I’ve
tried
Don’t fear to reach for me now
because I’m so close, so close
pretty stories of a Man who walked among the
people
healing anyone who could just believe
in all He said He was
and their decision wasn’t mine when it came
to what was right and wrong
but You would smile down at me whenever
I could tell You what it was
but I can’t deny the holy life of this
Man
whose death I deserve to die a thousand
times
and realizing what I need is always easier
than changing from what I have always been
into what I need to be
to reach this half of my heart
He had to touch my eyes
to show me truth that is real to me
Because it speaks of all I left
behind
now a real life is harder than anything I’ve
tried
Don’t fear to reach for me now
Because I’m so close, so close
–Jill Paquette
