September 26, 2005

• For those of you who are to polite to ask, but are wondering about my personal life, let me tell you a love story.

   

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  Once upon a time in the year of 2004, a girl left her home for a far away land. while she was there, she met a prince who was very handsome and kind. he showed interest in her and soon their names were linked together by most everyone in this far away land. but she didn’t know. She didn’t think that she was worth it since she wasn’t a princess, and when she spoke to her heavenly King about it, she never felt any peace. She continued the time there, learning alot and realizing that her heavenly King loved her so much that when He had made her, He had written a special storybook about her. If she choose to live this story, it would be the best, most fulfilling life she could ever know. She decided that no matter what turns, twists, and adventures this storybook had for her, she wanted to live it…whether it had a prince written in or not. She told the prince this, and he kindly stepped away. She returned to her home full of amazement and wonder.

   

  She followed her storybook back to the far away country again the next year, where her name was still linked with the princes’, and there were many awkward moments. Her heavenly King presented her with a very special present when she arrived this time–the friendship of a beautiful princess. the two girls laughed and cried together, and enjoyed looking into the sky, wondering about the storybooks their King had written for them. This princess confided something to the girl–she had fallen in love with the prince. the girl was very perplexed to see how this would work out, and the days seemed to pass very slowly, as the prince was very unaware of this fact.

   

   Finally the day of revelation between the prince and the princess came (while the girl was in an even farther away land), and all hearts were revealed. The prince and the princess are now basking in the enjoyment of a newly found romance. And the girl? she realized that she too is a princess, not because of the affection of a prince, but because her Father is the King.

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  awww. isn’t that sweet? The official names of the prince and princess are Roberto and Karine, two of my best friends in Brasil. It is amazing how God has worked this out. I am super happy for them. I get the best end of the deal as they are so in love that I get the benefit of their happiness, good nature, and going places (I am the official chaperone).
   

  so, yeah. that is my life. “A bruised reed He will not break, and smoking flax he will not quench; He will bring forth justice for truth. He will not fail not be discouraged, till He has established justice in the earth.” Is.42:3-4

   

  Rachel

   

  The lights grow dim

  the sun goes down

  the money drains

  the lovers drift

  the applause dies

  the curtain descends

   

  I am alone

  on the stage

  I became my part

  and now that it is done

  who am I

   

  i am franticly searching

  for the scripts

  to this next scene

  but it is not written yet

  and I go on

  in three minutes

   

  and I realize

  I can’t

  I don’t want to

  this is not my life

  this is not what I am called to

   

  I don’t go from one play

  to the next

  I am released

  from this endless role

   

  because You are enough

  I don’t need anything else

  and if You are enough

  I have everything I need

   

  I tried to be satisfied

  with a different script

  each day

  even after my acting days

  were over

   

  I don’t know what

  is wrong with me

  I still return to the familiar lies

  rather than the loving truth

   

  I want to live Your life

  I want it to be real

  but I am sinking in my fear again

  and You will have to do a miracle

   

  because You are enough

  I don’t need anything else

  and if You are enough

  I have everything I need

   

  I start out so well

  then along comes a spider

  he ties me in his web

  and feeds me lies and fear

   

  this time You have given me

  is just the opportunity

  to start out fresh again

  but all I do is wonder

  why the spider bites still hurt

   

  and I realize

  I can’t

  I don’t want to

  this pain is not my life

  this is not what I am called to

   

  I don’t go from one web

  to the next

  I am released

  from this endless cycle

   

  because You are enough

  I don’t need anything else

  and if You are enough

  I have everything I need

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