May 3, 2006

  • I am sick of saying


    To try again


    I am tired of trying


    To find a recipe


    For success


     


    I say the dreaded word


    That I don’t know


    The answer


     


    It is a wall


    With no windows


    A divider


    With no end


     


    When will it fall


    When will you walk free


    When will He call


    And You learn to see


     


    If God is real


    Then He is true


    If He is true


    Then what He says


    Will happen


     


    If what He says


    will happen


    then I’ll see miracles


    in Your life


     


    the wall will fall


    You will walk free


    He will call


    And you will see


     


    What am I waiting for


    Holding on to pain


    When is the moment


    Hope turns into reality


     


    No, I don’t understand


    Why release does not come now


    I don’t see why You are


    Waiting to work


     


    I shake my fist


    in anger


    My rage dies down


    To tears


     


    I stand up again


    You did not punish me


    For doubting


    I see nothing different yet


     


    The wall will fall


    You will walk free


    He will call


    And you will see


     


    All there is


    All that life means


    And where you fit

    And you will grow

Comments (4)

  • awww…thank you sOoOo MUCH! i love you, Rachel! i’m glad to hear you’re not down today! i get down pretty easily sometimes, but then when God gives me hope again…i seem to get up pretty easily sometimes too! haha. i think sometimes God allows us to feel such strong emotions though so we can write & help others too! haha. sometimes i feel that way at least…& sometimes just to grow. i have a LOT of growing to do, but at least i’m still growing i guess! haha…i keep rambling…sorry. btw, thanx for the compliment about the picture! Drew’s pretty handsomely cute if i must say so myself! hehe. things aren’t always perfect between us (actually far from it at times…we can both testify to that…hehe)…but the good thing is we haven’t given up & we’re not ever gonna give up & we’re learning a LOT from each other i think. it’s CrAzY cuz i’ve never found it so hard to love anybody before (at least in a relationship like that i think)…not that he’s hard to love…we’re just different in the loving way…but i’ve never wanted to love anybody more either & instead of just keep persisting on loving the same way i’m used to…i’ve finally just given up my way & told God i’m just ready to learn & i found out i’m pretty horrid at loving sometimes! haha. i hope someday to change that…so please pray! oh, & you HAVE to come to our wedding now since it isn’t this summer anymore, but next! k?!? k. glad you can come! haha. well, i just wanted to let you know i love you & thank you TREMENDOUSLY for doing this for me! btw, my LAST day of COLLEGE was TODAY!!! PRAISE JESUS! haha. God bless you, beautiful Rachel!

    ><>RaCHeL<><

  • sorry…they always end up sOoOo long! haha. i really don’t even try for them to!

  • Hey Rachel! Sorry I’ve been so – well – absent. I’ve been really selfishly focused recently and have missed out on my friendships because of it. I’ve been an oober procrastinator this semester and had about 3 weeks to finish a sememester’s worth of homework – while at the same time train my replacement at the Church and move. Yeah so I am really regretting my lazines this semester. I mean I have know idea what I did with the time i wasted – i didn’t really hang out with anyone and I don’t have a tv – so wierd.
    Anyway all that to say I am sorry. Can you forgive me?

    It was super good to hear from you on the phone and I finally got your message – I’ll be waiting to hear from your folks about the Camara.
    And now that I’m free from school (and nearly free from work) —- lets do this newsletter thing!!!

    Are you game? (I know it should have been out in like – oh um March – but it’s never too late right??) Can we start on Monday – I’ll email you some of my ideas on Monday and maybe you can email me some of yours (send them to Jeff’s address – JeffRoyTurner@gmail.com) -Sound good??

    Also – the real reason I responded: you sound really up in these last two posts – so I want you to know I’m praying for you – I can’t get it out of my head that I need to pray for you –
    - Lindsay

  • We have Skpe and I will try to be online with it more often. My Username is Jeffroyt if you have a seperate account other than tele’s then let me know. -Jeff-

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