January 17, 2007
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Peter (John’s friend) just fell in our “pond” out back (it’s actually a horse trouf…trough…troph…food storage thingy) and John proudly told me “i saveded him from drowning!” now he’s singing in the bathtub. i like little boys. especially when i can sit here and document the interesting things they do instead of deal with it. Dad is running around finding everyhing and worrying abou hypothermia for me. oh wait…now we lost Seth…
My mom gets back tomorrow. amazing how fast and well the time went. so if i needed to run a house, i now know i could…i don’t think it will be my choice for awhile though…
Everyone has the moment. where something suddenly happens and you realize that you are not control of your life…or anything. Like when Hannah fell down the stairs and they thought she was dead (she is, by the way, up and running around just fine). you just can’t plan for those things. i don’t know when it is that i start thinking i am invincible in life…but apparently i do. or at least figure that some areas of my life are settled enough to forget about. i got some letters on Saturday. Letters that said “NO MORE FINANCIAL AID” stuff. which means not only do i need to pay for my current classes, but won’t get the refund that will be VERY nice. i freaked. worried. had a stomach ache. and sat there thinking “the office is closed, i can’t do anything about it until Tuesday…and i need to trust God and not freak out about it–God is still God and it is not the end of the world.” and yet…i wish i could tell you i handle every emergency or sudden change with the grace of someone who knows God is God and everything else is small stuff. i don’t. i went in and talked with the people…turns out it was a simple mistake…everything is fine. sigh of relief.
one day, i will be able to say it was a bump that didn’t phase me. my eyes were only on Jesus. one day.
