Please pray. one of my boys is in court right now.

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I am missing something

i know enough to know it is gone

but not enough to know what it is

i know enough to feel empty

but not enough to know how to get it back

i know enough to wander around lost

but not enough to make a plan of action

i know enough to hate things as they are

but not enough to change

i know enough to know it isn’t fair

but not enough to fight for it

i know enough to imagine something better

but not enough to beleive it could happen

i know enough to cry

but not enough to scream

and as long as life keeps me

sedated enough

i will trudge on

as if nothing is wrong

because why should i even try

to tell you what is missing

if i do not even know?

in reality

we are all begging for something

some reality different than what we have

Why can’t i kill this thing called

common sense

i don’t want him to win