March 5, 2007

• i bought a coconut. and sipped my coconut while walking around town. but i didn’t look all “native” because no one in Brasil does that. because walking around with a coconut is rather heavy. oh well.

  i went to the feira (open air market thingy that reminds me of those pictures in India and stuff…smells and all) and talked my way into only paying 12$R for some shoes. actually, it was pretty sad. the whole time i was thinking “this is a third world country. she needs this money more than i do. and i am trying to get these cheaper? why?” so i felt guilty. grrr. then i bought this thing wrapped in a corn husk and ate it just because i had never eaten it before. actually, it wasn’t that good. rather gross. well, you can’t win every time. i brought it back to the Alcance to ask Karine what it was to make sure i wasn’t being poisoned or something. but no, i am still alive.

  i’ve been here a month.

  i’ve learned that i am looking for a place. that is quiet. beautiful. alone, empty. where i can’t hurt anyone and no one can hurt me.a place where i can go when i am tired. a place of rest.

  i’ve learned i am looking for a person. someone who wants to sit down and listen to my day. whose face lights up when i come in the room. who sees the little extra things i do and says “hey girl, that’s good.” who sees my mistakes and hugs me and says “hey girl, that’s okay.”

  i am learning that that person is God. the place is somewhere with Him (until heaven). He’s enough. so i am learning again. and again. and i will still be learning tomorrow.

  i’ve been staring at the stars alot lately. there was a lunar eclips the other day. red moon. sweet.

  Last week i decided to teach the kids the alphabet. i didn’t realize that kids in Brasil learn how to write cursive. most of them don’t even know printing at all. so what i planned for as teaching 26 things turned into teaching them the whole mechanics of writing and so on and so forth…what is funny is that they will never forget the letter “x”. because of x-men. they mumble through the whole alphabet and then come to x and all the guys get excited and say “X!” in their power positions, imagining they are wolverine or something…

  my goal for this month is to talk to more strangers. yep.

  • 5:04 pm
  • 1 Comment