December 24, 2007
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if i ignore it, it will go away
…right?
The law of retail: things go from folded to unfolded. i swear, people come in and mess up the sweaters on purpose. i’ve almost caught them at it.
so i crossed the two week line. A VERY BIG REAL line in my head. where i start hiding from the lunchroom and socialization. not really possible to do around Christmas…but…it is like when i know i am leaving the country…why try to start new relationships? why get hurt? ehhhhhhh.
something big always happens at the two week line. at least in my mind. i lose it. i re-evaluate my life. i wonder how much it will cost to change/cancel/modify my tickets. i ponder the point to life and realize i still don’t know what the heck i am doing about anything.
i hung out with some of my kids from the youth center. i wonder what my kids will be when they grow up?
answer: they won’t be my kids anymore
i hate life.
the pastor asked something really interesting at church…what was the worst thing you have ever done?
what was the worst thing ever done to you?
Jesus died for them both.
