July 10, 2008
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There are some lessons I can only learn in Brasil
There are some lessons I can only learn in the US
And God knows when is when. And how is how. And who is who.
And I trust Him.
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I called the visa lady. She said she sent my visa two days ago. It is supposed to arrive 24 hours later. Hasn’t yet. When I heard she had sent it, I cried. I guess I am going to Brasil. I am rather emotionally unstable. I started saying goodbye to everything. Goodbye playground. Goodbye swing. Goodbye grass—ahhh! I am going to miss grass. So today I sat on the steps and waited for the ups truck. I haven’t sat on the steps and waited for something in a long, long time. No truck. Maybe tomorrow. Something inside me is bound up tight and I can’t get it unbound. Everything that happens around me happens. But it doesn’t touch the tightness inside me.
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“Remember: you belong to God from eternity to eternity. You were loved by God before you were born; you will be loved by God long after you die. your human lifetime—long or short—is only a part of your total life in God. The length of time doesn’t matter. Life is just a little opportunity for you during a few years to say to God: “I love you, too.” –Henri Nouwen
