October 7, 2008

• i think…

  …that every woman should be made to feel beautiful.

  …that my love affair with philosophy should only be once every other week. otherwise it gets too heavy.

  …that there is so much to learn! it is overwhelming. and i am just not going to get to all of it. I’ll have to pick and choose what gets me and what doesn’t. but even learning things i like…gets tiring after awhile.

  Little seed
  should i pull you out
  while you are little
  and can’t hurt me
  Little seed
  i like you as you are
  but maybe not as a plant
  maybe i don’t have room
  maybe you will grow to big
  and then were would i be
  little seed

  there are two guys in my college classes. two. and one is nice to look at and the other is not. and the one that isn’t knows that he isn’t and so he hides in the back left corner. the one who is, knows that he is and thinks it means he doesn’t need to show up for class because someone else will copy the work for him. one of the girls that likes to look at him.

  the problem is, he is right.
  and i am a snob and don’t talk to either one of them.
  bleh.

  TOLERANCE.
  you know why the world in general has resorted to tolerance? because us Christians (known as the church) didn’t love. Don’t love. tolerance is the world’s substitute. we said “love the sinner, hate the sin” and then did neither–just ended up ignoring the sin and the sinner altogether (too busy in our own little worlds to mess with it). and so the world took up for us–they tolerated.

  if you love the sinner, you don’t treat them any differently because of the sin. the love’s too big. sin is not THEM. notice one time–just once–that God ever treated you differently when you were in big piles of crud.

  if we really loved…how would we ever come up with questions like “How do you treat someone gay who comes to church?”

  um…love them?

  i have a big urge to make a fort and go hide in it. i haven’t made a fort in ever so long…
  i want to hide in it and say “God, i am not leaving this fort until you fix my life. for me. FOR ME. i don’t want to do it.

  so that’s how it is.

  i have found the big secret to teaching (actually…i regularly find it and then lose it again…):
  REST. simply be calm. be collected. controlled. If we do all the work planned, we do. if not, we don’t. and always start by going over the rules. remind them what they gain if they listen, what they lose if they don’t. Mix in a little conversation and say over and over again “What? Say that again…in ENGLISH. we speak English in English class…THANK you for raising your hand…no, you may not stand on the chair…”

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