December 31, 2008
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Goals for 2008
A. Know God and be known by Him
1. Study/read the Bible with journal of questions, summaries, thoughts, and stick figure people
2. Meditate (especially before I go to bed) with CDs or 3×5 cards
3. Study other books/Bible studies
4. Memorize 1 and 2 Peter
B. Be satisfied at the feet of Jesus every moment
1. Asked to be emptied (confession) and filled (praise/worship) each morning
2. Once a week fasting and prayer
3. Once a week God time…candles, climbing trees, something—writing in the God journal
4. Sit and enjoy God’s beauty, LISTENING for what He has for me THIS day
C. See happy endings, changes, growth, and miracles in hopless situations
1. Daily put on the armor of God and intercede for people (in journal)
2. Keep up on personal journal of what is going on
3. Keep up on weblog and online prayer requests and stories and praises
4. Encourage God’s best and total submission in every encounter, listening to that person as if they were the only one on earth
5. Face fear and ask “So how are you and God?”—check up on people, no one is exempt from problems
6. Look/eyes open for new opportunities to reach people-my place and ministry in Brasil (PETI?)
D. Love God first and completely, as my King and Lover
1. Be open and honest, not trying to protect myself
2. Pray for my future husband and keep up on journal
E. Use my talents for God’s kingdom
1. Keep up on writing about books I read, Bible studies, things I learned, poems, journals…
2. Projects: scrapbooks, portfolio, Big books, youth center curriculum
3. Spend time CREATING…art journals and stuff and decorating and gifts
4. Learn to play the guitar!!!
5. Learn/study/practice more Portuguese
6. Become a better English teacher—keep planning! Teach more adult classes—seminary, teachers, Paudalho…
F. Keep up/fight for the relationships I have—focus more on people than projects
1. Weekly communication/encouragement to my family and my support system—write letters (try once a week to random people)
2. Weekly communication/encouragement with those I mentor/disciple—and always look for more people to help
3. Serve in little ways those I live with, especially my authorities
G. Education and MISC stuff
1. Get a Student visa—vestibular, get letter, go to college in Brasil
2. Do my internet classes well/ taxes, FAFSA kept up
3. Music and entertainment—to honor God, not distract or waste time…what can I give to God, or how could I better use this time
4. drink more water, eat less, and exercise lots
Well…didn’t do toooo bad on my goals for last year. hmmm.
it is always weird to look back on a year.
it was a good year.
i learned so much.
i told my mom i knew everything when i was 20. i have sucessfully undone all that learning since then. 26 and so very much more lost than before.
beautifully lost.
maybe…
not lost enought
yet.
am i even ready to write my yearlong goals? a year is so long.
are plans only for those who know?
am i really able to change anyways? what is change? how does it work?
i want to wake up tomorrow…
the person i am supposed to be.
but i don’t know who that is or what they look like.
i want it to be the woman God wants me to be. i want to look at a photograph. i want someone to look at and say “ok, so just copy off of them.” but they are not me.
and i don’t have a picture. i have a watch that ticks loudly in my ear.
i have an idea that refuses to stay in the lines. fluid and beautiful and so very…magical. magic fades in reality.
and then i come to hate this thing called “Goals 2009″
this year, i shall have to write one that i can be friends with.
