November 13, 2009
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popular
knock off.
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I can feel the popularity level rise and fall. I’ve never been the popular girl. I stick to myself and get what I want done. Much more efficient. Much less popular. Popular normally involves a lot of time doing nothing, and a lot of time gossiping. Or a lot of time doing everyone else’s work. Every once in a while I kick myself and say I should be more social. I didn’t explore the complexities of popularity growing up. I was homeschooled. There was church heiarchy, and I soon gave up on that. There were activities, but that popularity lasted only as long as the daylight hours.
So I am 27 and in a foreign country, beginning my experiments. I stand out in being unable to tan and speaking lousy Portuguese. Now I am in charge of this school fair project. And it is nice…people pass in the halls, stop, smile, and say hello. Notice me. Validate me. But it is fickle. If I stay quite and don’t say much…it fades away. You always have to be doing something to maintain the popularity. And I think that is too much work for me. I will be glad when the school fair is over. Easy come, easy go. One more thing to knock off my list.
Comments (4)
I hope you do realize though that it is people like you who make the world go around. I myself have never spent time in popular land–ha, Xanga might be the one place where I actually am popular. But God is able to still find many good things and people for us, regardless of what others think.
@GreekPhysique -
thank you for taking the time to write me. it really encouraged me…it takes me awhile to respond (internet issues), but when i receive these lil bits…they make my day. yeah for unpopular!
@rwinzeler -
oh! I’ll talk to you more often, then
You are doing important work for God in Brazil 
I want to be supportive. Plus you’re an interesting writer.
@GreekPhysique -
please do. unfortunately…i cant ever do those group xanga things or meetings or whatever that require internet. i barely keep up with e-mail. and right back at you about the interesting writer stuff:)