January 20, 2010
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Why did i put on red socks today?
…and other questions that cannot be answered after a long day of academic excellence. welcome to the world of being a senior in college. consisting of not being able to find a parking place, wishing you would have brought your scarf, and weighing out the pros and cons of eating broccoli in class.
yes i did. eat broccoli.
Get up and hit snooze until you can’t hit it anymore (there is a limit, and i have found it. every morning). Jog (INDOORS) with your eyes closed and almost feel like you are back in Brasil. shower and eat and pack your backpack too full and pray for parking spaces. Fiction writing with a teacher who judges boxing matches. Philosophy with a typical golf-sock wearing professor (where i eat broccoli), and a little snoozing while multitasking in Abnormal Psychology.
The other days are Editing and holding my breath that i don’t get called on because my books are not in yet, and professional writing with a teacher that might just be a pushover. and then i go to the youth center. and run the tutorial program. and play air hockey.
did you know that yesterday was National Popcorn day? i did. because we celebrated it. guess how much popcorn the average American consumes in one year.
54 quarts.
so get eating. and today is Penguin awareness day. so go hug a penguin. We are watching something with those Madagascar penguins. i just have to figure out how to label it ”Educational.” grin. i love my job.
“You’ve gotta be mixed, mz.Rachel…you sound so black.”
and other such things that get said to me daily. flashback to 2006 and i wonder if i have grown any older…back at the same center, but it isn’t the same me. and the things that are different…were not in the places i thought they would be.
Sledding and snowballs, mostly in a skirt, sculpting snow, capture the flag, fooseball tournaments, writing contests…
All my old kids are not kids anymore. most of them are mommies and daddies. or just about to be and i am invited to the baby shower. I still love girl’s Bible studies. more than ever. We were talking about who God is, and i read a verse about how God doesn’t abandon us. Diamond, due in April, asked if it was a sin to give your baby up for adoption. or abortion. I wonder what kind of pressure she (at 16) is getting. We changed what we were talking about for the rest of that Bible study…
so i have filled my life up to the brim again. homework claims the rest of my nonexistent social life. oh, and just got a second scholarship to help with IUPUI costs. thank you, Jesus. and a nagging question tugs me: am i overcompensating for feeling empty? or the idea that if i left it empty, there would be nothing to fill it?
“What a wee little part of a person’s life are his acts and words! His real life is led in his head, and is known to none but himself. All day long, and every day, the mill of his brain is grinding, and his thoughts, not those other things, are his history.” –Mark Twain
