January 25, 2010
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Freud and Abnormal Psychology
normally i fall asleep a bit (just a bit) in Abnormal Psychology. not day. a wrote a Freud poem. ha!
Unconscious motives slowing sliding
to the surface
scare me
i should have been
a student of my heart
i would have seen it coming
shaking
through the calm
i struggled for so long
to smoothe over
to survive
and i succeeded
better than i should have
until a shudder
a crack
and truth splinters through
my dream last night
said more than it should
i can’t hide
from myself anymore
of all the things i have lost
what i miss the most
is the bliss of ignorance
when i beleived
that morality expressed
on passionate lips
was reality
it became security to me
it became a system for me
until scattered words
shattered my peace
all men are liars
wallow in self-pity
a pool of black liquid
holds me in seculsion
i am a martyer for my cause
the solitary crusader for justice
until shaken once again
by my own hypocrisy
by a sense of insecurity
scattered into pieces
my beliefs were never mine
