October 7, 2010
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Million Pieces
Whenever I go to the art museum, I get overwhelmed. I start hoping I won’t like any more of the pictures. Because it is too much. I feel like if I see any more, I will splinter into a million pieces.
Same thing with traveling. I am afraid to fall in love with a new place because then I have a new place to miss. A new place to want to return to. A new place to keep up with.
Same thing with friendships. With people. Truly loving the ones I already know is already exhausting–will I have room for any more?
I have to believe that the way love works is to expand you. Not burst you into a million pieces. At least I hope so. God, you have to help me expand to love more, because right now, I am overwhelmed. Maybe I need to burst into a million pieces first.
“The best things in life are free–but are the d*** hardest to keep.”
Comments (2)
This is EXACTLY how I feel ALL the time! I’m so glad I’m not alone in that feeling! I love you SO much, Rachel! It was SOOO good to see you the other day, even if it was for a little while!!!
LOVE YOU!!!
-RaCHeL
@SoaKiNGtheSoN - i know! so good to see you too! you are still on xanga? i haven’t seen any of your postings lately…i always loved to read them in the past!