March 12, 2011
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“If you can worry, you can meditate. It is turning something over and over in your mind. You keep coming back to it. When you receive information that matters to you, you can’t help meditating on it. Like finding out a guy likes you and what the heck are you going to do about it.” –”The Me I want to Be”
So as you can see, I am finally catching up on everything I have been thinking about the past couple of weeks. It is like an explosion of xanga posts. Sorry about that. I am sure it would be better in small doses.
“Everything that happens once can never happen again. But everything that happens twice will surely happen a third time.” –Paulo Coelho (I re-read the “Alchemist.” Goodness.)
I don’t know how to live in the world of spoken words and cold hard facts–or in the world of the unseen, felt without touch, and language without words. The world without words seems deceptive. Like it teases me right out of reality. It is unstable, unpredictable, and the moment you call it to action, it slips through your fingers. It makes a fool out of you, but then whispers so sweetly that you cannot deny it. it is the world of faith, hope, and love, but it seems utterly useless in the face of hunger, bitterness, and pain.
If I wait for the unspoken to be said, life will pass me by. I have one life to live and I want to do it well–step out on air to fall or fly. In the world of unspoken I have three choices: trust others, trust myself, and/or trust God. I have already learned to be careful of trusting others or myself. But I need to learn about God and me. How does it work? When I am talking to God, how much of it is God and how much of it is me? Who is talking back? Do I simply attribute the good things to God and the bad to me? Show me how it works, God.
The world of the unspoken needs to sit and wait until it is ready to be revealed. It is too big to fit into words. It has to simmer down until words can be matched.
“Why do you want to know the future?”
“So I can change those things i don’t want to happen.”
“But then they won’t be part of your future.”
“Well, maybe I just want to know the future so I can prepare myself for what is coming.”
“If good things are coming, they will be a pleasant surprise, if bad things are, and you know in advance, you will suffer greatly before they even occur.” –Paulo Coelho
“I’m a desert woman, and I’m proud of that. I want my husband to wander as free as the wind that shapes the dunes. And, if I have to, I will accept the fact that he has become a part of the clouds…explain the meaning of love without ownership…if you don’t follow your personal legend…you’ll walk the sands of the desert, thinking that maybe you could have left…that you could have trusted more in your love for ____. Because what kept you was your own fear. You must understand that love never keeps a man from pursuing his personal legend.” –”Alchemist”
