Month: August 2011

  • Yeah Birthdays!

    I am an attention hog. Love it. And since I freely admit it, you can’t hold it against me. Facebook is a beautiful invention that lets so many people tell me Happy Birthday and feel loved. Yesssssssss. It was a lovely day–thank you!

    Pictures that must be posted:

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    me and my Cajueiro kids:). That green thing some of the kids are holding is seaweed–I brought it back–and some coins for the kids–and made everyone try it:).

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    YEAH SUPERCAMP!!!! Taught the boys how to play “Ninja,” their new favorite game.

     

     

  • “Inside every older person is a younger person–wondering what the heck happened”

    Another birthday. hmmmmm. The only reason why this is one is alarming is because it is darn close to 30.

    I’ve been in Brazil almost a week now–settling in, visiting friends, planning the future, teaching classes, and Living Stones. Of course Living Stones. Updates on the Living Stones Blog are coming soon. And in a flood. With pictures.

    Yesterday on the way to Living Stones Cajueiro Claro, a bull came charging down the road. I was never scared of cows until Brazil. But when they wander free and randomly cross your path, you realize you will never joke about tipping them over ever again. Those buggers are BIG. So I jumped to the side of the path, and into a big squishy pile of mud. I suppose I should be grateful it wasn’t something else.

    The puddles outside the church in Cajueiro are so big that we call them swimming pools. Thank goodness they cut a new path around them that is only muddy, not three feet of water. Diego and Neto came riding up on Diego’s horse. They offered me a ride, but there is no saddle, and I haven’t watch enough horse movies lately to remember how to get up on one without…anything. I also haven’t ridden in general since 9th grade.

    I am not in Indiana anymore.

    Some things haven’t changed, like Marcella still won’t let me take her picture. I actually have to wait until she isn’t looking before I run up and catch her to get a hug. But I know she really wanted one all along. It is the silly game we play. With the new kitchen, Flavio made all the kids eggs. I told him we could rotate cooking. This means I really going to have to do it: after almost 4 years of living in Brazil–I am gonna have to learn how to make beans. From scratch. Rachel cooking. Makes me laugh.

    The kids have nothing to do the rest of the day–Paudalho schools (where the kids are bussed) are all on strike. The mayor refuses to pay the teachers their correct salary. Who knows how long this will last. I wear SPF 30 and still have a red nose. That is unfair. So are all the bugs in this rainy weather. I have gotten pretty used to all the creepy crawlies that are around…but really…must there be so many? In random places at random times?

    And they don’t call it “raining cats and dogs.” In Portuguese the expression is “the fox’s wedding.” Anyone want to guess why? Because I have no idea. Life is good. I have joined a gym and have the sore calves to prove it. The deaf guy at church mimed for me (as he always does), that he is glad I am back from the plane. I have had wonderful conversations and even began thinking in Portuguese again. I start post grad classes in Educational Psychology next month (I think). I start community English classes this Sunday.

    Let’s face it: I love Brazil. And while that is sometimes inconvenient, and I wish it would go away, I find myself randomly whistling “Blue Moon” while waiting for the bus, and smiling at the chicken being chased by the cat. There is something special about here. And I am here. I was rather spoiled at being at home. Cooking for myself got old on day 2. And I miss my peeps…so many beautiful people in my life. But life is good. And I am 29 now, because it just turned midnight here.

    I still remember coming in 2004, missing one flight and showing up 12 hours late, sleeping in the back of the car until I sleepily looked out the window and saw a man carrying a chicken by it’s feet while riding a bicycle. Hello Brazil. It has been a great 8 years. Thank you for being a part of it with me. Cheers!

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  • Summer in Pictures

     May 13th–Flew home to Indiana to get a student visa after spending the rest of 2011 in Brazil. Graduated from IUPUI on May 15th

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    Enjoyed some awsome time at home and then visited awesome people in Chicago, randomly had car problems, and then went to Peoria where my friend took pictures that made me feel beautiful

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    Memorial day happened with some of my favorite girls (and Rowan)

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    I’ve missed a lot of moments like birthdays and weddings and such…but was so glad to be at Erica’s graduation–so proud of my bestie!!

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    June was my challenge to write at least 500 words a day–which turned out to be harder than I thought, but more rewarding as well. I also put together things for Brazil, and got on a plane for Cali–yeah Disney and Legoland! Love those coasters…and lil brothers.

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    July 1st was the youth center reunion–gotta see my peeps!

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    And then on another plane to Hong Kong with Supercamp where I worked with awesome people

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    Facilitated for awesome kids, and even their parents

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    August meant one last chance to hang with ze greatest people ever

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    And celebrate my birthday–which actually isn’t until the 26th, but still.

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    August 19th–Back in Brazil…at least until Christmas.

    SMASH BANG ROCKIN SUMMER!!!!

    Thanks to all the amazing people in my life–I love you all and feel so blessed!

  • Waiting

    It has been a while since I’ve just waited for something. No cell phone. No texting. No talking to someone. No planning. Just waiting. For a bus. Outside the airport. In Rio de Janeiro. And I guess I am ruining it by writing about it now.

    Brazil has always meant a lot of waiting for me. Of slow down, you can’t control things anymore, Rachel. It has been hard. Because Rachel likes to control things. A friend was watching me pack my things and commented: “Doesn’t your head go crazy with all the things you are trying to do? How can you be so calm and balanced?”

    I laughed. Because I am not. I am getting closer, though. At Supercamp, one of the keys to success is balance. I chose that as my favorite, because it is so gosh darn hard that I am going to make it my favorite until it really is. Until I really get it. Maybe it will always be my “favorite.” I like waiting. it does me good. I have missed Brazil.

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    My view yesterday: Copacabana, Rio. This is what happens when they give me an 8 hour layover:). So sorry it has been so long since I have posted anything–I got back from Hong Kong, had a flurry of activity seeing all my wonderful peeps, and then hopped on another plane to Brazil.

    I feel all kind of different, coming back to the same place, but after having such an incredible three months in the USA. Even the flight felt different. This was my 19th trip to or from Brazil. But I am different this time. I’ve been somewhere else. I know I can last a 15 hour plane trip. I know I can fly around the world. Less novelty–more sage looks. Less curiosity–more confidence.

    My comfort zone has grown. And I almost feel sad at this development. The new has worn away. I feel older. I can see clearer. And I am slightly nervous about what I am going to see.

    More news, more updates…all to come. Thank you for your prayers!

  • Around the World in less than 80 days

    Closing my eyes on the airplane is like taking a shower. I always have the best ideas when I can’t write them down. And by the time I can find paper or turn on my computer, they aren’t half so brilliant as they were in my head. The secret is, they probably never were quite so ravishing, but they always will remain that way as a wordless idea.

    Perhaps my inspiration comes from flying. Having a window seat. Even though it means I must climb over two people to use the restroom. The sun is just about to set, and the ridges of clouds below me resemble the waves that splash below them. That is enough to inspire anyone.

    I have flown around the world in much less than 80 days. Counting Detroit as my hub—I went from Detroit to Hong Kong via the arctic circle, Russia, and China: 27 hours (15 in the air, 12 changing time zones). Continuing, I flew 4 hours to Japan (1 hour was time zone change). Now I am flying up over Alaska and then back down to Detroit, actually landing 2 hours before I left: 29 hours. Or something like that. Time zones confuse me.

    I feel fat. Sitting in airports and in my little cubby of a space, doing nothing but eat whatever they feed me. And International flights feed you well. Love that veggie choice. It means they always give me my food first, because I am special. I am sitting next to a grandpa and his grandson. They just toured China and went on a cruise to see the Terra Cotta soldiers. He says it is his last big trip because he is running out of time. He is sleeping. And I have to go dehydrate.

    That was all I had time to do in Japan. We flew over Mt. Fuji, or where it would have been if the clouds hadn’t hidden it. I got off the plane, where I bypassed the squatty potty and chose a normal toilet. By the time I walked to my connecting flight, we were boarding. I watched Japan out my window as we took off and flew over the ocean, imagining someone flying over it, just like me, but to drop a bomb that killed so many people. I can’t understand war. Funny how that is the only tangible thing I connect with Japan.

    I went to the art museum in Hong Kong. No American art to be seen. Made me laugh that I was expecting it. They have their whole history without us. How did it become an us/them thing? When did everyone non-Asian suddenly look familiar when I passed them on the street? I am ashamed of myself. I didn’t learn any Chinese. My attempts at “Thank you” were politely accepted, but not correct. I got used to seeing everything bilingual until the Chinese symbols became almost invisible to me, like a pretty doodle or underline to the English words.

    Only a couple of things jolted me out of my comfort, such as driving on the other side of the road. Amazing how that changes your mentality. It is not just driving, you see—it is trying to cross the road. It is finding yourself trying to go up the down escalator, because they are on the other side. It is walking against the flow of people in the subway, even though the floor is nicely colored with arrows that tell you where to walk to help others such as me.

    Crossing the street was an endless frustration because not only did I not know which way the cars were coming, but half the time there were fences and bridges or tunnels. I quickly learned to allow myself to be lead along with the crowd, feeling like a piece of cattle, reading letters to go to which exit to know which direction to go and not look so foreign.

    The other times I felt frustrated always had to do with the restroom. Asking for toilet paper was easy enough, carrying around an empty roll and pointing, but for a place ordinarily so efficient, I can’t figure out why they always seem to be out of toilet paper. We need some brain power for that invention. Everyone (women) have learned to carry around their own toilet paper to survive.  But as for further communication, the day I left something in the bathroom and it disappeared created such a mime game that neither I nor the cleaning lady ever got anywhere past “good morning.”

    But it was a wonderful experience. Hong Kong is beautiful. Waking up to a view of the harbor every day made me realize I really do always want a bit of ocean in my life. The people are kind and polite, answering my questions tirelessly and with a smile. The tofu is great, and there are so many kinds of mushrooms. And I discovered egg plant. It looked like a bowl of slugs to me, but I closed my eyes and ate it anyways and it became my favorite. Chris, another facilitator, called it walrus skin. It really did look pretty bad.

    I also enjoyed eating with chopsticks. They make noodles fun, and with rice I became good at the shovel-in method. Some of the sauces were better than others, but all of them had me wondering what exactly they put in there to make them like that. I never reconciled to noodles for breakfast, but there was always cornflakes. I would jump at the chance to return, or go anywhere else international with Supercamp. Definitely my way of traveling.

    I was a bit worried about coming to Hong Kong. Brazil was the first place I went  that was “far away.” And look what happened—I fell in love with it. Falling in love is wonderful, but it sure does complicate your life. And if you give something you love the time it deserves, you think twice before falling in love again. I didn’t want to fall in love with Hong Kong. I could never survive polygamy.

    Anna asked me once how I was sure Brazil was for me, if I hadn’t been anywhere else. I said I just knew. She said she wanted to go everywhere once before going back somewhere twice. I said once you knew you had the real deal, you didn’t need anything else. Well, I’ve been somewhere else now. I’ve been quite a few places. And I appreciate them all. I think the travel bug is permanent. But they do not hold me like my family does, or like Brazil.

    I know as soon as a turn off the computer I will have more brilliant thoughts. Oh well. I need brooding time. You will just have to imagine my next great thought for me.

  • Asian Poetry Amazingness

    City Scape by Leung Ping-Kwan (translated by someone else)–I found these on the wall at the Art Museum in Hong Kong.

    The city is the color of neon

    Secret messages hidden there

    The only pity is, you’re wearing a mask

    No way to know if it’s you that’s speaking

     

    Fruit from many different places

    Each with its own tale to tell

    In newly dressed shop windows

    Che Guevara rhymes with the latest Prada

     

    In your little cafes I bump into

    Friends I have not seen in years

    Between pickles and green tea porridge

    A cup of tea has drunk away a lifetime

     

    So sing me a song then

    On the winding midnight street

    Yesterday and us, we’ve come face to face

    But however we try, we can never recall today

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    Greetings (by the same lady)

    No language can match

    The skill of the wind

    Contained colors

    Live on in vain

     

    Let me greet the other side of town

    How have you been lately?

    Rain wears me down, why

    Does it pour all the time?

     

    Unspoken thoughts

    Turn into glass bits

    Window displays

    My enlightenment-fits

     

    The couple downstairs wrangle

    Barbecue aromas up

    Miss you, read, wonder, are you

    In someone else’s tango?

     

    Heart icy dim

    Net virus love

    From outerspace

    Old files erase

     

    Rid me of sediment?

    Who is this, mirror asks

    A new self sprouts

    A new wearing task

     

    Figure out hair tint

    What’s it this season?

    The air floats feelings

    To fleeting to mint

  • Wrong side of the road

    It is amazing how discombobulating it is to have cars driving on the other side of the road. Riding in a bus makes me cringe because I am always sure we will hit something when we turn. Crossing the street is just disasterous. I have never been good at that, even when I do know which way the cars are coming. It makes you feel like something is just a little off–that you have transported into some other world that moves to the left. And you realize that it works their way too…and you wonder what else can be done differently and still be a valid option. Blow my mind.

    Junior Forum was amazing–the kids were full of questions and ready to go. All our fears of low English levels were erased after the first day when kids were raising their hands to share in front of the group. All of them were special, but one of note is King Julian.

    Julian made himself a crown and wore it regally, adding to his donald duck plastic necklace, tee shirt, high tops, and multicolored leggings. This was his daily uniform. The first night he was on the podium, sharing about his day. In one word increments. pause. Julian is 10 years old and about 4 foot tall. When told to dress up for graduation dinner, he put on pajamas. For graduation, he got out his leopard tank top.

    One moment I will always remember was during our dance circle. Everyone jumps up and down dancing, until the music beat goes down slower and everyone lowers down until we are on our hands and knees, waiting for the music to speed up, when we rise and jump up and down again. Well, not Julian. As we get lower, he becomes visible–standing there in the middle, tall and regal. He looks down on everyone on the floor, as they are his subjects. As they begin to rise, he raises his hands, orchestrating the whole thing–the powers that I am convinced he is sure he has.

    It was day 4 when he told us his actual name, which is not Julian (he got that from Madagascar). Apparently, he decided it wouldn’t be a good idea for his parents to come and have everyone calling him a different name. But to me, he will always be Julian. I need more Julian-ness in my life:).

    I arranged to have three days of sightseeing before leaving Hong Kong. They have been fantastic. Supercamp let me stay in my dorm room (yeah!), so I already feel comfortable with getting around and knowing where I am at. Not that I haven’t managed to still get lost, but it is always in a basic general direction of where I am going–so that doesn’t really count.

    I have enjoyed sleeping in, jogging (yes! my rib is better!!), swimming in the ocean, visiting random bakeries and eating all these interesting breadness things, fresh fruit (gold Kiwi is my new best friend), and shopping all over Hong Kong. I feel like a pro on public transport, going from HK island to Kowloon and the New Territories. Today I took a cable car to the big Buddha. It was a beautiful view, with a glass bottom. There is something amazing about islands and ocean and mountains covered in green. And about going over them.

    I kept looking at the Buddha and wondering why him…why did he get to be so famous and all statued-up? From the simple studying I have done, he always seemed like a great guy with a lot of good ideas, but I always get the idea that he would probably be surprised at all the statues of himself as well. The big statue looks like it is waving as you leave. I waved back.

    China knows tofu. I’ve had stinky tofu, tofu in goopy sauce, fried tofu, sweet tofu, BBQ tofu…but today was the best ever tofu: curry tofu at the monastery. One thing those buddhist monks have for sure–good vegetarian meals. Yum. I loved it all except for the green tea red bean jello stuff. That was NOT for me.