August 20, 2011
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Waiting
It has been a while since I’ve just waited for something. No cell phone. No texting. No talking to someone. No planning. Just waiting. For a bus. Outside the airport. In Rio de Janeiro. And I guess I am ruining it by writing about it now.
Brazil has always meant a lot of waiting for me. Of slow down, you can’t control things anymore, Rachel. It has been hard. Because Rachel likes to control things. A friend was watching me pack my things and commented: “Doesn’t your head go crazy with all the things you are trying to do? How can you be so calm and balanced?”
I laughed. Because I am not. I am getting closer, though. At Supercamp, one of the keys to success is balance. I chose that as my favorite, because it is so gosh darn hard that I am going to make it my favorite until it really is. Until I really get it. Maybe it will always be my “favorite.” I like waiting. it does me good. I have missed Brazil.
My view yesterday: Copacabana, Rio. This is what happens when they give me an 8 hour layover:). So sorry it has been so long since I have posted anything–I got back from Hong Kong, had a flurry of activity seeing all my wonderful peeps, and then hopped on another plane to Brazil.
I feel all kind of different, coming back to the same place, but after having such an incredible three months in the USA. Even the flight felt different. This was my 19th trip to or from Brazil. But I am different this time. I’ve been somewhere else. I know I can last a 15 hour plane trip. I know I can fly around the world. Less novelty–more sage looks. Less curiosity–more confidence.
My comfort zone has grown. And I almost feel sad at this development. The new has worn away. I feel older. I can see clearer. And I am slightly nervous about what I am going to see.
More news, more updates…all to come. Thank you for your prayers!
