Month: December 2011

  • 50 Best Pictures from 2011

    I can’t take credit for all of these…I included the name under the picture if someone else took the picture.

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    Eric Little took this of Nino in Cajuerio

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    Eric took this of Demas at Cajueiro DSC_0096

    Eric took this of Paulo at Cajueiro

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    Eric took this of the girls getting water in Cajueiro

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    Eric took this picture of Josefa and I in PaudalhoDSC_0205

    Actually, I am not sure who took this. I had a buncha photographers helping me at the Children’s day party. DSC_0272

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    Karianne Knepper took this in Peoria. Love those jeans:) DSC06689

    Dickins took this picture in Hong Kong–Rock it!DSC06705

    Dickens took this in Hong Kong. Yes, that is a doctor/medicine thing on my head. Yes, I am playing bouncy ball with strangers in a country around the world. You got something to say about it? :) DSCN4785

    Yes, that is a turtle shell and a super cool Jamaican :) . I think Koral took this picture. DSCN4861

    Meet the cutest guy in my life: Rowan. And he knows it. DSCN4919

    Probably the most perfect picture I will ever take. With the most amazing people. DSCN4997

    I have a thing for Carina’s ankles.

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    I am old.

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    Mariana in Cajueiro. Eating food I cooked. And liking it. DSCN5338

    Independence day in Brazil.

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    I took a picture of the pretty graffiti before I even realized the homeless person sitting under it. DSCN5353

    Paudalho. I have a big crush on that place.

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    Paulo and Edivaldo would manage to find drums at a pool party. And make noise. DSCN5786

    Have you ever tried to photograph a butterfly? This was a miracle picture, taken in the Amazon, a miracle place. DSCN5867

    The Amazon river with Acai swaying from the trees. DSCN5923

    Just like the pictures…floating down the Amazon river. DSCN5940

    I have this thing about taking pictures of strangers and hoping the don’t notice. DSCN5950

    One of the birthday parties we celebrated: Paulo turned 12.

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    Jasmine in Cajueiro

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    One of those perfect days in Cajueiro

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    Donkey rides and picnics and climbing trees and all my boys. My perfect life. ICP Lvng Stns Apr 2011

    Easter party and get together, taken by Frank Penna.

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    One of the kids peeking out of a mud house in Cajueiro.

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    Raquel marching in the PETI carnaval celebration.

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    My secret spot I found after walking a couple miles down the beach in Pontas de Pedras, Brazil. IMG_0764

    Some of my babies. The girl in pink, Stefania, had been kidnapped in February, but luckily is safe and doing well now.

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    A random street corner in Old Recife, where I escape to and go exploring. IMG_0831

    Brother’s get kisses, whether they want them or not.

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    California Adventure in Disneyland, CA

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    Leandra and Diane at the Christmas party, taken by Jeff Turner. IMG_4458

    My view every morning in Hong Kong, taken by Apoorva.

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    Children’s day party, taken by Jeff Turner.

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    My amazing co-facilitators in Hong Kong: Dre and Chris, taken by Apoorva.

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    Graduation, May 2011, taken by Anna

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    The hill. Before we got the motorcycle, part of the 4 kilometer walk, each way, every day, to Cajueiro, taken by Frank Penna

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    Main street Cajueiro claro, taken by Frank PennaP1000419

    Camila in Cajueiro, by Frank Penna

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    Jon-Jon eating my cooking, taken by Flavio

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    This is as tan as I get. With Diego and Gustavo, taken by Frank Penna (Notice my sandal tan line…) P1000957

    Easter party with Cesar, taken by Frank.

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    Children’s day party, taken by Eduarda.

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    Devotions in Cajueiro, with Lucas, Ivanilson, and Paulo, taken by Frank. youngest karla kid

    The youngest of 7 girls, where the oldest is 12. I rather love this family.

    On to 2012!!!!

     

  • but wait! my to do list isn’t finished!

    “so what do you have planned for 2012, besides the end of the world?”

    “we are moving, but I think it is after the world ends, so there might be a problem.”

    “when is that, anyway?”

    “I think the world ends in May.”

    “Oh shoot, I thought it was December.”

    Hmm. I love random conversations. that I have or overhear. I remember the end of the world this year–I think it was in May. I ran around Chicago and ate Greek food. That is what I remember from that. Oh darn, the shift key just fell off my keyboard. sad face. Not that I normally remember to capitalize anyway.

    It has been a lovely two weeks and two days in the US of A. Lots of meeting with people and eating yummy food. Lots of sharing about Living Stones and making even more to do lists. I even have “write new to do list” on my to do list. This has got to stop somewhere. And now it is almost 2012, and what do I have planned besides the end of the world? Too much, probably, but that is the way I like it. I like it because then I can cross things off. And move on.

    But I also need those moments that lack lists, whether they are actually written out or not. Silence. Stillness. Me and God-ness. Help me Lord, have more of those.

    One of the many great things that has happened recently is putting all of the Living Stones financial stuff in order. Paper work (suppress groan). And the official list is at the official blog of Living Stones (imagine that. grin): http://buildinglivingstones.blogspot.com/2011/12/amazing-year.html

    If you don’t really care about numbers, the basic happy thought is there is some money left over after everything is said and done, and nothing is in the red:). I also put together some of the accomplishments of the year–the things done through God’s grace and the lovely gifts of people like you. It is pretty impressive. I was pretty impressed. Amazed. Awed. Humbled. Because God choose me to help do this. That is a pretty incredible thought. Celebrate with me!!!!!

    ·         2500 meals served to needy children and their families

    ·         7 Birthday parties (“$10 for Them” program)

    ·         7 children saved (that we talked with personally and continued discipleship)

    ·         300 children heard the Gospel (most of these children heard multiple times)

    ·         35 children enrolled in our Cajueiro Claro program: shown love every weekday this year, and regularly attending church and school.

    ·         175 children ministered to at the Christmas party, 150 at the Easter party, and 200 at the children’s day party.

    ·         Two pool parties and a pizza party with Cajuerio Claro program.

    ·         Over 30 homes visited, multiples times.

    God bless you, and happy New Year!

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    If I could choose any life to live—this would be it. That is a feeling only God can give, and comes when you are living the life He designed for you. I graduated from IUPUI last year, and made it back to Brazil before New Years. The Living Stones program began in 1998, but after becoming the coordinator in 2009, I realized that we were starting from scratch as far as paperwork: missions statement, objectives, fund raising, curriculum, and so on.

    The second Living Stones project is in Cajueiro Claro (only 8 more to go, for the 10 Living Stones in 10 towns in 10 years plan). I began walking the four kilometer walk to this small rural town of 1000 people a couple times a week with Pastor Flavio, opening my heart to these amazing children.

    The sad news is that with all of the corruption, we had to end the connection with the government program, and close down the Living Stones in Paudalho while they were working on construction. But we were able to keep in contact with the children from Living Stones Paudalho through home visitations, our January Christmas party, Easter celebration, and Children’s day party.

    After living all over in Brazil, this year I was able to share an apartment with some of the other English teachers, having my own place to rest, as well as being in a convenient location. I continued teaching English outreach community classes, well as teaching music (in English) at the International school.

    This year I was accepted at a University in Brazil to work on my post-grad degree in Educational Psychology. With my tourist visa ending in May, I applied for my student visa while visiting my family for the summer. It was a whirlwind of fun, attending my graduation from IUPUI, spending time with family, a vacation to California, and a month in Hong Kong, working as a facilitator with Supercamp.

    Returning to Brazil in August, I finally learned how to cook for Living Stones: rice and beans, noodles and chicken, and anything I could think of to use up all the bananas. With the kind donations from people, we were able to really move forward with the program, and expand our vision for the future. For Children’s day, we had a special celebration for almost 200 children from Paudalho and Cajueiro Claro!

    My cousin, Lillian, also came to visit, taking me for a dream come true trip to the Amazon as her translator. It was such a blessing to have her come and teach for Living Stones, and I hope many other friends and family will come in the future.

    This year I have grown as a professional. Taking one step at a time, and learning on the job, the Living Stones team, as well as many friends and family, have taught me how to move from a short-term missions trip mentality to long term goals and objectives. While I have never enjoyed asking for money for myself, I believe it is important to be able to give people the opportunity to give to others—just as important as the need is to receive. Creatively finding a way to present theses needs—with creative ways to give is a challenge and an adventure.

    This year we began the $5 for 5 challenge—skipping a meal and giving that $5 so that five children can get a hot meal, and $10 for them—donating $10 to purchase and give a child a birthday or holiday present. These two campaigns help fund the basics of Living Stones—providing them with the food they need to be able to concentrate and learn about Jesus, and celebrating with them their personal value in Christ through birthday parties and holidays. Of course, the main need is for monthly donors, willing to give a dollar a day. 60 monthly donors giving $30 will enable us to begin a new program.

    With our goal of reopening Living Stones Paudalho early 2012, I will be home for Christmas to enjoy my family and share these exciting opportunities. If you would like to get together, or open your home to invite friends over to hear about Living Stones, I would love to share. We are growing quickly, and need your support! (I will be home until January 24th)

     

  • Finding the Perfect Present

    Cold weather for a week–I am still getting used to it.

    Amazing food and eating out more than I have all year–tummy still growing.

    Friends and family and meetings and sharing about Brazil–never gets old.

    I returned to cold Indiana last week, and the time has been amazing. People are so full of the holiday season and sharing and caring and loving…it is wonderful. It is Christmas eve and I am finally unpacked enough to find my christmas gifts and start wrapping them to put under the tree.

    But I wanted to stop a minute and let you know about a really neat opportunity.

    There are so many people who already have everything–that you just don’t know what to get them for Christmas. (For me, this is every male I know…I always just end up giving them food. You can’t go wrong with food.)

    I know this is a recession, and many people are working so hard just for a basics. But coming fresh from Brazil, the stark differences are still in the forefront of my mind. Stop for a minute and look around you–we have a lot. The children I know in Brazil have nothing. It is hard to describe “nothing” when you haven’t seen it for yourself.

    Living Stones is a program I believe in–working with the poorest children in Brazil, giving them food and opportunities for a better life–most of all, in knowing Jesus Christ. So many people gave to the $5 for 5 campaign, giving $5 to give five children a hot meal. And because of that, the program has been able to finish the year out strong with food for everyone.

    But Christmas is about more…Life more abundantly. About the extravagant, overabundance of a God who not only made us, but called us back to Himself after we left. Who came to earth, limiting everything about Himself. We don’t give Christmas presents in America because the person needs it, but because we are filled with the desire to share all the good things we have been given–to show the person that we value them, that we see how special they are, and celebrate it.

    I propose doing both at once: giving to our loved ones who are near to us, while showing and loving special children in Brazil. Through the $10 for Them campaign, that is what you can do.

    $10 for Them (www.wribrazil.com/10forthem) is donating $10 to buy a Christmas or Birthday present for an impoverished child in Northeast Brazil. On the webpage, you can click and print out a certificate to give to a loved one, letting them know that for their Christmas present–they gave a Christmas present to a child who otherwise would not have received one. If you have more questions, please contact me at amobrazil99@hotmail.com.

    I believe that for every person who has a need to receive, there is a person who has a need to give. The need to give is a real as to receive, it is just often forgotten. Connecting the givers and receivers, and realizing that each person has both needs, is a huge part of the holiday season.

    May you truly learn how to give and how to receive this Christmas,

    Rachel

  • Living Stones Christmas wish list

    Big projects:

    1.      Heavy duty copy machine for copies

    2.      60 people faithfully monthly giving to start Paudalho in February, paying for cook/assistant in Cajueiro

    3.      Rechargeable batteries (aa and aaa) and chargers, mp3 players and speakers

    4.      Fans to keep cool

    5.      A Kombe for Cajueiro (hey–a girl can dream, right?)

    Supplies:

    1.      Books that are fun to look at—lots of pictures—to start a simple library

    2.      Games (that don’t require a lot of English: topple, connect 4, Uno, memory, cards)  

    3.      Posters to decorate the walls-with minimal English, maps, blank posters to use as whiteboards, calendars, attendance, birthday, and holiday posters

    4.      The cube evangelism tool

    5.      Record keeping/teacher planning books

    6.      Dry erase markers/wet erase markers

    7.      Small lotion/perfume bottles, gifts for mothers

    8.      CEF bible stories with big pictures (those big books at Christian family book store)

    9.      Foam shapes (with the sticky stuff on the back)

    10.  “Staying safe in Emergencies”  and “Working with others” by Robin Nelson, Peeble book “I am polite”

    11.  Curriculum from the Children’s Institute on the masterwork of God, the names of God, and the armor of God

    12.  “That’s where God is” by Dan and Ali Morrow, “Heaven for Kids” by Randy Alcorn

    13.  “Make these Toys” by Heather Swain, and Azar Fundamentals of English Grammar (big black book)

     

    Supplies in Brazil:

    1.      Max Lucado books in Portuguese

    1. Hygiene products (toothbrushes, toothpaste, soap, combs, and shampoo)
    2. Portuguese Reading/Literature books to teach basic reading and writing  
    3. Sports equipment
    4. Seeds and such for planting a garden at each Living Stones

     

     

  • Her Words

    (My cousin Lillian came to visit me in Brazil this October. After taking some time to organize her thoughts about the trip, she asked if I could post it for her.)

     

    Rachel is too modest.

     

    Her life is not for the fainthearted!  The work she does with Living Stones through World Renewal is phenomenal!  She can’t leave her apartment without someone shouting “Rachel Rachel!”  English students, Living Stones participants, past students, school students, friends from church, and on and on.  They are always stopping to chat and receive hugs, but not for long as Rachel is racing off to another class, another mission, another project.

     

    She has made an incredible difference in the lives of hundreds, maybe thousands!  In Brazil, a friend of a friend is their friend too—much to my benefit.  She is loved and respected, and gives so much love.  The people know she really cares.

     

    As Tele Moraes, the head of the mission said, “Rachel is more Brazilian than the Brazilians.  She has learned the language, the culture, and how to fit in and reach people.”  Rachel is an asset to the World Renewal efforts—not only does she attend to their spiritual needs, but to emotional needs like self-esteem, and physical needs like food and gifts.  You can’t find anyone who thinks less of themselves and more of the people they are working to reach.  God has been able to change many lives through her ministries: I saw and heard first hand!

     

    I can assure you that any money you donate to Rachel or her Living Stones projects is well spent.  She keeps no money for herself unless so allocated.  Even then she spends her own money on mission projects rather than on herself.  She’ll walk an extra mile or two instead of taking a bus so she has enough to buy a cake for a birthday party for one of the children.  She doesn’t eat out, even if it is inexpensive, in order to buy bread for the children in her Living Stones project.

     

    Do Go Visit!

     

    You will have the most incredible experience of your lifetime!  I felt so many emotions at once.  Rachel is a most excellent hostess – catering to my every need.  Knowing I was tired one day, she put me on public transportation while she walked home, not wanting to spend extra money.  I had special needs for my feet and she helped all the time.  It is incredible—worshipping with believers in her church—the Spirit of the Lord is there so strong it doesn’t matter if you understand the language! The people have such a heart for the Lord that you can’t help but be blessed!

     

    Go with her to meet her children—they will steal your heart and will be so glad to meet you and enjoy whatever you have to say (Rachel will interpret).They are happy to play board games—no interpretation needed!

     

    Go with her to the market—get fresh pineapples for 60 cents, 6 mangos for a dollar, and many other fresh fruits and vegetables, depending on the season.

     

    Go with her to walk around town—hustling and bustling with people all day!  So many shops: you can get anything you want.  Try a manicure and pedicure—I got one to help my feet and treated Rachel to a pedicure.  The manicure and two pedicures cost $8.00 and was the best job ever!  The people are so helpful and friendly.  When I got ready to lace up my big shoes, the lady in the next chair waiting her turn got down on her hands and knees to lace my shoes!  Only in small town Brazil! 

     

    Go with her for a ride in a Kombe—a VW van with 3 to 5 seats – public transportation that stops anywhere along the main road. They try to squish in as many people as possible, but nobody minds crowding in and they were a lot of fun.

     

    Go visit the pottery town (wonderful place to find gifts) as well as the blanket factory. Go experience wonderful restaurants: the best beef in the world, with so many fresh and natural foods—Rachel knows all the best spots and how to get the most for the least cost. (You have to have cheese wrapped with beef or fresh grilled chicken on a stick over a little open fire grill!  And be sure to have a Romeo and Juliet tapioca—guava and melted cheese in a wrap made out of the flour from a root.)

     

    Living Stones

     

    Rachel is making an incredible difference in the lives of these children—the poorest of the poor.  She is teaching them that they can have a dream, they can have a better life, and they can love and be nice to each other. She also works with hygiene, manners, sharing, getting along, and so much more.  She and Pastor Flavio show the children a good Mother and Father role model, as they work together like a family  (No, Rachel and the Pastor are not an “item”). 

     

    I can see the incredible difference she has made in the time she has spearheaded this project in the lives of these children after being with them for a week. It is the love she shows them, and God’s love.  If the project receives the funds, when the children reach age 16 they want to teach them a trade: carpentry or welding for the boys, and how to cook for the girls, so that they will be able to get jobs to support their families.  Otherwise they have little chance or opportunity.

     

    The children do go to school, some of them sometimes anyway.  They live an average of 4 kilometers off the road on a path of up and down steep hills with almost impossible ruts.  That is 4 kilometers from the main road which is still a distance from a town or the school.  Some days the school bus comes, more often than not it doesn’t.  I asked why not?  Nobody knew.  These children have very little opportunity, other than what Rachel and the Living Stones Project is doing.

     

    Have you seen Rachel’s curriculum?  She has a subject and schedule for each day. She has organized for a year of lessons! 

     

    Rachel has a policy—each day has 3 parts, except even busier days like Sunday which have 5 parts.  Her policy is to go home and “rest” one part of the day, to get out of the heat.  Most days she’d say “I’m tired—I need a half hour power nap.”  What does go home and rest mean?  Go home and rest to Rachel means organizing projects, getting English lessons ready, planning parties, get-togethers, songs for the school opening ceremonies which she does every morning, preparing what to take to Living Stones, planning what she is going to teach for her various classes, etc.  Most days while I was there she never had time for a power nap before we had to rush off to the next class, commitment, church, or event.

     

    The English School for the Upper Middle Class

     

    The International School is for the upcoming middle class of Carpina, the town Rachel lives in.  She does the opening ceremony for the kids teaching them Bible verses in English and Christian songs in English as well as teaching English.  The children are taught all the subjects but get healthy doses of the Word all day long! The money made from the school then goes to fund the seminary and the church planting ministries.  

     

    In Brazil, those with money do not mix with, help, or donate to the poor.  The School is doing something phenomenal: they are gently asking the kids to help with Living Stones. They are also offering as many scholarships as possible to children who would not otherwise receive a good education. One of the missionaries, who teaches basketball at the school, asked the well-off students to come and help at an event for the poor children. At first they said they were too busy.  He said “You have everything.  They have nothing.  Can you just spare a couple hours to come help?“ Several of them did!  Even one little girl who doesn’t like sports came and put on her gym shorts! 

     

    This Thanksgiving Rachel presented Living Stones to all the students and parents at the International school, sharing about the needs and becoming the official outreach of the school. Now, any time they have a fund raiser, the money will go to Living Stones, and many of the children donated their toys to give to the Living Stones children for Christmas. Enough food was donated for the rest of the year!

     

    Giving to Rachel you know that every cent is well spent.  One thing I found out is that with the devaluation of the American dollar and inflation in Brazil, just a few years ago the exchange rate was 3 Real for 1 dollar.  Now the exchange rate is 1.6 Real for a dollar – which means it costs over twice as much to live – even meagerly!

     

    Thank you!  Lillian

    (Wow! I feel a little sheepish about posting such a glowing report about myself on my blog…toot toot toot goes my horn. But I gladly say a huge THANK YOU to Lillian who came and loved everyone she met. She was a great encouragement to me in so many ways I cannot even count. And everyone in Brazil cannot wait until she comes to visit againJ.)

  • 10 Perfect Christmas presents

    (if you want to see pictures from our Christmas party at Cajueiro claro, go to http://buildinglivingstones.blogspot.com/2011/12/christmas-party.html)

    Ten Perfect Christmas gifts:

    1.      Become a Foundation Builder: www.wribrazil.com/foundationbuilder. It starts with a dollar a day. 60 monthly donors giving $30 will provide for a new Living Stones project in an impoverished community in Northeast Brazil. Support a child in the name of someone you love. Get them connected, knowing they are making a permanent difference in the life of a child—and in a whole community in Brazil.

    2.      Buy a present for a child in Brazil by giving $10 for Them: www.wribrazil.com/10forthem. For the cost of a gift card, a birthday or holiday present can be purchased and given to a child within the Living Stones Project who normally receives nothing. Buy the present in the same of someone you love, and give them certificate that lets them know someone is getting loved because of them.

    3.      Feed 5 children with $5 for 5: www.wribrazil.com/5for5. By giving five dollars (a fast food value meal) to Living Stones, you are providing a hot lunch for five children who lack basic nutrition, security, and care.

    4.      Magazine subscriptions. I listed the Living Stone’s options first, because that is where my heart is, but there are many other organizations doing wonderful, amazing things around the world. Two favorite ministries, www.gfa.org and www.wordmadeflesh.org, both put together good quality magazines with articles that inspire greatness—perfect presents for anyone.

    5.      A real letter. I don’t know what is so hard about moving from pen and paper to putting it into an envelope and putting a stamp on it, but real letter writing has become a lost art. Take the time to write down what that person means to you: it will be something treasured long after the wrapping paper is thrown out and the presents are broken.

    6.      Picture books. There is amazing (and simple) technology out there to help you make a professional poem, journal, or picture book in minutes. And prices are getting better as well: www.blurb.com has a full color, 20 page book for $6 (plus shipping and handling). Put together a book of special moments in a time where most of us never remember to print out any of our digital pictures.

    7.      “The Best” lists. Put together a list of “the best” songs, movies, or books. Make a “mix tape” CD, or buy a gift card to a book/movie store where they can then buy their favorite from your list. With media at our fingertips, the question is not how to get it, but what to choose out of all that is offered.

    8.      Homemade cookies and coupons. It is hard to go wrong with food, especially when made from scratch. And/or, tuck in a couple “coupons,” offering your future services for things such as cooking meals, car washing, shoveling snow, babysitting, cleaning, manicures, giving massages, and so on.

    9.      Making memories. What is the love language of the person you are giving to: is it gift giving? Acts of service? Words of encouragement? Physical touch? Quality time? Find out so that they can truly feel loved. For the“ Quality time” people, give time to make memories by doing something special together. Volunteering somewhere together is a great idea this holiday season, like at Good News Ministries or Wheeler Mission (if you live in Indianapolis).

    10.  Passion.Don’t ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive and then go do that. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.” –Howard Thurman. The best present you can give this year is you being passionate about something. Be the one who begins the wave of something great—something you believe in. What do you get excited about doing? Who do you get excited about helping? Try something. Get excited about it. Share it.

     

     

  • These past weeks have been like “Little Men.” I have all my little men gathered around me, and I feel like quite the mother hen. It is beautiful. And they get into scraps and I get serious and then tousle their hair once more. I rather love touseling.

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    I came up with this amazing idea that the boys should be able to cook on their own. I figured I would do a favor for their future wives. So for the past two weeks, every day we have a “master of the kitchen.” Some days turn out better than others.

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    One morning as Flavio was talking, Demas started crying. I don’t really know why—God was speaking to him, or something. It was definitely conviction, because Flavio certainly didn’t say anything very convicting. The other boys saw and giggled. I nipped that in the bud. But it began something. Soon Flavio was crying. Soon Paulo, then Ivanilson, and even Geu. The girls had tears coming down, and Lucas hid in his shirt. Flavio kept saying how much he loved them. How much God loved them. How we wanted so much more for them than just to be little street kids. How they weren’t—they were special and chosen by God. How they would be the difference in their community. I was doing all I could to not bubble over.

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    We had a picnic, and went exploring around Cajueiro Claro. That is the benefit of working in the middle of nowhere: it is the middle of nowhere, and extremely beautiful, wild, countryside. Complete with donkeys.

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    I love it. I love it so much that I am scared it won’t stay. I don’t know what is wrong with me. Every time I have a wonderful feeling fear enters my heart because I am always wondering when I will have to say goodbye. When it will go away and never come back. Why am I so scared of abandonment? It is something deep inside me. Something that says if it is this good, it will never last.

    I want to simply enjoy what I have, when I have it. I love these kids. It is something beautiful. Something good. Thank you God, for this special time. Even though I do not know how long it will last. I stop to thank you for what is, not worry about what may be.

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  • Ants

    God says to watch ants. The only time I do this is when I am stuck waiting, which happens a lot in Brazil. It also happens that there are a lot of ants in Brazil, so you are stuck watching them more than you want. When I was little, I watched ants a lot. Funny, because God says to be like a child. I would rescue stray ants that would roam the house. I’d rescue them from mom’s squishing and dad’s spraying. I felt like a hero. I cried when the ant died in “Honey I Shrunk the Kids.” Ants and I were friends.

    Then I came to Brazil. The land of ants. Brazil is a creative, colorful, tropical country full of creative, colorful, tropical people. And ants. So many different kind of ants. I met fire ants that bit my toes when I played soccer barefoot. I met little ants that floated around in my lemonade, getting into any food I didn’t refrigerate. I met ants that ate the glue out of my books, ants that joined me on picnics, ants that crawled up the tree after me, but most interestingly, I met tanaguras.

    Tanaguras are the size of my big toe. They come out after the rain and children splash around in puddles, collecting them in buckets. I ran around after them, laughing at the fun, but only managed to catch one. I proudly showed it to Junior who said “Wonderful! Now you can eat it!”

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    All this from watching ants. Look where it gets you. Pretty great the things that happen when you listen to God.