January 24, 2007

• a weekend without internet and it takes me hours to catch up. i am an addict. that is all there is to say. and i must prepare myself for withdrawal. grr.

  And i thought i wouldn’t get any snow before i left for Brasil. after putting the covers over my freezing nose last night, i am ready for it to go away. or for me to go away, which is much more convenient for the rest of the world.

  in some weird way, whenever i do something i shouldn’t i want to get caught. not all the way…but i want to know for sure that it really does pay to do right. that it pays to get places on time. it pays to park in the right places–that those little sacrifices are worth it.

  Sometimes i think my/our/people’s vision of purity is a man crawling across the dessert, gasping, saying “purity…must have purity…until i get to marriage…” let it be a lifestyle…a character quality in me my whole life long. it seems hard because sometimes purity feels like killing everything i want…denying desires over and over. and i am not even talking about sex…”little things” like what movie i watch or music i listen to…God, give me your vision of purity.

  Someone asked me what they could pray for me for while i was in Brasil. i fumbled. hadn’t been asked that in awhile…especially not when they had a notebook in hand and so were actually serious about it. i haven’t sent out an official “prayer letter” thing since i wrote all about it in my Christmas letter…and God has provided the finances. how horrible that i would only put in the extra effort when i was worried about cheddar/cheese/bread/dough/the green thingys.

  So yes, i leave next Friday, spend the weekend at the Everglades, and then arrive in Brasil February 6th. please pray for:

  1. The trip. time with God. to be romanced. to enjoy intimacy with Him. alone.

  2. The school. teaching 30 some kids, i want to be consistent, i want to do more than what is required, and i want to do it JOYFULLY. teaching is rather exhausting. i don’t want to be tired.

  3. The ministry. there is a link “Alcance” on my xanga if you want to see some of what all is going on in Brasil. it is an amazing ministry. amazing people who live with the Spirit of God. the church planting. i hope to specifically be involved in the music ministry, more English classes (that i squeeze in somewhere) and living stones–a program for the poorest kids…run alot like the youth center here in Indy. and of course church planting.

  4. Me. i want to give. i want to be a blessing. i want to be a well overflowing with God. i want to forget about me. to encourage these people who inspire me, but are still flesh and blood and guts and glory. i want to be found faithful. and finish my internet classes and take some Portuguese classes. and no grumpy, self-pity, whinny moments.

  so please, do keep all this in your prayers. my xanga is selfish in wanting to not be words on paper, but requests for the most valuable gift–time on your knees. my heart overflows towards those who have been so kind to me, my life is one most blessed by love. thank you. i will be in Brasil (Lord willing) until August. if you have any other questions, please write me, i love e-mails. amobrasil99@hotmail.com

  and don’t worry…i am sure i will write more updates than you can read:). let me know if you want me to add/remove you from my e-mail list…i want to keep that current and useful to YOU, not me. Deus Abensoi.  

   

   

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